Useless I am

She is down..suddenly...
She said she dont know how to solve the problem.
She said she dont know what is the problem.
I think it is my fault! I did bad thing this morning. Maybe is it!
I am sorry!!! Sorry!!!! T.T So sorry..... I had promised not to do that anymore but I nvr keep it. Im sorry.
Sorry.....


Dear,
Im very worry about u.
Why you need to suffer alone in silence?
Dont you know I AM HERE?
Come to me, count on me!

Am I so useless until you dont believe that I can help you?
I am so sorry.
Yes, i do know that I am useless.
I cant help you at all.
and i annoyed you.
I tried to pray for you.
but tiredness and illusions stopped me.
I dun know why, in this dark room, makes me think of ghost.
Im so timid.
how useless.
=(


Dear, I was really hurt... when u say: "just go away"
My heart suddenly felt great pain... Inside my chest suddenly felt cold... and I had a bit difficulty to breathe.
But dont worry, just a short while only. after that i told myself, u just dont wan to angry or scold me... bcoz i was annoying and u having a bad mood. That is why it is better for me to go away from you.
Again, I am sorry.

Please, O Lord Jesus the Almighty, pls help my dear. I miss her so much. Forgive me... Pls dont blame my sin on her. Im sorry. T.T