Im Not Counsellor

I cant be counsellor
I tot can solve everything well
I tot I can be a good teacher
I tot I can face everything calm
I tot I can
But I cant actually.

Accidents happen in One and Suddenly
I got shocked
I lost my mind

The student shout at me
I can calm n endure
But I cant persuade
I dont even know what am I talking
Talk like nonsense

Accident happens right in front of my eyes
I lost my soul and I did nothing but call for help
Where it goes, my calm mind?

When I see the other counsellor speak to them
I want to cry out
They are full of love
I so disappointed to myself that I cant do like them
I just.....
Not talented.

I know nothing but only jokes around with them
Play together with them
Talk nonsense with them
BUT THAT ISNT MY JOB!!!
My job is to counsel those who need!
My job is to solve the accidents n problems!
NOT JOKING N TALK NONSENSE!

Im Not Counsellor.
Im Not Talented.
I Dont Think I can be a good teacher.
Should considerate about quit my studies.

Everything I tot I can.
When I do in full confidence
Then I found that I actually CAN'T

I HATE
the confidence which bring disappointment
from where i got those confidences?
I HATE THIS KIND of ME!
NUTS!