Informal Letter

Dear blog, How are you? Long time no see. I'm sorry that I had abandoned you for so long. I was extremely hectic. After assignments have ISL folders plus a lot of events held by school and BC Club. Recently I was being hated by my classmates. Those girls are dislike me now. Last Saturday, there is an event held by unit PJ sem5. This event is damn irritating. We are forced to send 10 person to attend and pay RM10 for it. I felt like been bullied and forced to pay money. What is this school? This is how they earn money! I want to complain! How can this happen here? Forced to attend and forced to pay. Then I wish to have 10 girls to attend because I heard that Blok A girls are not allowed to back home as their waden commanded them to stay back for gotong royong. At the end, it canceled and I was angry with my PKU because she is damn NOOB! I dont know how to describe her. She is just... NOOB~ best word to describe. Fine, I was a person who is unfair in their eyes now. Ex-KU is better than me. FINE! When i was chosen to be KU, I had predicted this incident. I'm well-prepared to overcome it. I am now lonely, and I am not longer an active person in class. I am not longer a talkative person in class. They don't chat with me now. They ask anything through ex-KU. They not satisfied with me. Time passes slow. When can I get rip of these stupid heavy jobs? Why am I so stupid that I never outsource to other ppl? I am an IDIOT! I am a bad guy. Wish to change, but fail until now. Super lousy! Blog, sorry for murmur to you. I'll be fine soon, hopefully. Your truthfully, Yang

Holy Spirit?

Why?
almost 10 years I had prayed for it.
And i still cant get it.
Why?
God dont like me?

Always i wish to change.
At the end, Im still the same.

Act, as a strong guy.
Yet, i am damn weak.

I really want to change!
But why I cant make it?
Why always fail?
Why I am so weak?

I just lost my heart!
Losing my faith!

Blamed God for not giving me Holy Spirit.

Sorry.

I am so wrong.
I am so weak.

Sigh....

Such a useless guy...
wasting oxygen on earth.
Can i end my sucks life here?

Heartlost

Currently facing a great problem....
I lost my heart.
I dont know where it goes...
I just heartless to do anything....
Interpret
Sabbath Service
Youth Fellowship
RE class
EVEN PRAYER!
heart is lost...

I can feel that im quite far away from God.
Im in super danger...
Anyone can help me? T.T
get my heart back.
Pls.